Letting it all out.

I’m glad that you’re actually trying now. It used to break my heart when it’d seem like you could care less about us. I think you’ve realized that, though.

First time crying in awhile. I definitely don’t miss this feeling.. I’ve actually been pretty happy lately. I’m determined to keep it that way, no matter how sad you make me.

I can’t take this anymore.

I am a human being. I HAVE FEELINGS. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU I AM TIRED OF MY FEELINGS BEING STOMPED ON I DONT DESERVE IT NOT ANY OF IT I AM TIRED OF YOUR SHIT PLEASE just stop :( please

Why do you do this to me? Do you like knowing that I’m in pain? This is what I get for loving someone too much, I guess. But you can’t help how you feel :(

It’s so crazy how one person can mean so much to you. I mean, I’ve had crushes before, I’ve thought guys were attractive, and then.. I fell in love. I know people are going to say that I don’t know what love is, but I believe I do. Love is caring more about him than yourself. Love is making sure he’s happy, even if you’re not. Love is BEING happy just because you’re with him. Love is having a smile on your face because you know he only loves you. Love is when your stomach drops and your heart beats faster and faster when you see him, when he kisses you, when he hugs you. Love is when you feel like he’s made you a better person, and that you’ve learned so much from him. Love is willing to do anything for him, just to see that smile. I believe that I know what love is, and I’m just so thankful that I have you.

it’s the little things

Over the past few days, I’ve learned to never take what you have for granted. It really IS true that other people have it worse, and I’m not even talking about the whole “starving kids in Africa” thing. After what I’ve experienced, I’m just grateful to be able to say that I have a bed to sleep in at night, and healthy meals to eat. A lot of people don’t have that, and I know that many people, including me, think it’s just something that will always be there and that isn’t a big deal, but it is. I know that I complain a lot, and I’ve realized that I shouldn’t. I’m not going to say that I don’t have the right to, because we all do, and it’s okay to complain sometimes. But the fact that I do live a good life is the reason why I shouldn’t complain like I do. I have good parents who work to provide for me, I have a roof over my head, I have clothes and technology and things I want but don’t need. I have a relationship and friends, and that right there is something I should never take for granted. Because one day, it might be gone. I know that my life could be better, but I also know that my life could be worse. I may not live the life I used to, but I can not say that it is bad and horrible because in reality, it isn’t. I know that I can say I am truly thankful for what I have.

Maybe the wolf is in love with the moon, and each month it cries for a love it will never touch.
(via dexpunk)